A whole new year… fresh starts, new beginnings.
Everyone is full of making new year’s resolutions of the kind that will last a day, possibly two: diets / exercise regimes / cleaning rotas / spring cleaning aims… the list is endless. I don’t think I have ever made a new year’s resolution in my life… because I make them every day, or rather, I have made them every day. I have constantly wanted to change myself, be something different, look different, act different.
But this year, I have made a new year’s resolution: to be me. I am 20 in just under three weeks’ time. I am done with living for other people, trying to fit other peoples ideals, trying to please people. I have spent the last six years journeying, battling, fighting to find myself. At my lowest moments the thing which kept me going was knowing that I was at the end of the journey. Once the battle had been fought, the me who had been so suppressed would be there, waiting.
We are always journeying, but that particular route has been travelled now. It is time for a new journey, a new road, a new direction: as me.
So this year, I am not only going to take hold of something new, I am also going to let go of something. I am going to let go of living how other people want, trying to be something and someone I’m not. And instead, I am going to live for me.
As me. And for me.
What are you going to let go of this year?
And what are you going to take hold of?
Lots of love, and a very HAPPY NEW YEAR to you all.
Anna-Katharina xxxx
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