Who am I?

Who am I? A question we often all ask ourselves. What am I doing? Where am I going? Before we can answer  any of these questions we need to be able to recognise ourselves. By that, I don't mean we need to look back over family photos and be able to point out to our grandchildren which one we are, but rather, I mean we need to know how to listen to our own voice. How many of us can walk into a room and want the world to turn and look? How many of us can answer a question about our own personal preference without inquiring the advice and opinions of those around us?

During my years with anorexia, I was stripped of everything. Not just my physical weight and curves, but my thoughts, my opinions, my decisions, my mind, even my memories. I had to be taught everything. I had to learn everything: how to eat, how to feel, how to think, how to run, how to sail, how to play, how to work. Most importantly, I had to learn how to listen to my own heart. How to truly feel, how to feel ok in my own skin... how to feel ok being me.

I write every day. It is my way of living with myself and of finding the true person I am. Sometimes I write in pain, sometimes I write with hilarity; but always, if I am looking for answers and looking for the way, my writing will give those answers. Writing, for me, is a way of holding up a mirror and seeing myself, someone I have neglected to the point that they became a stranger. I have chosen to blog because I want to encourage you to turn around and see yourself too; to stop looking for yourself and your answers in others, and instead to live life as you. As you, for you and in you.

With warmth and love, AnnaKatharina